07′ vs 08′
January 8th, 2008 by syin88一转眼，2007 年就过了。
07年里，有开心的、也有悲伤的。
开心时刻不会长久。
悲伤时却刻苦铭心。
我越想努力，
却越无能为力。
一转眼，2008 年到来了。
08 年里，有希望的， 也有期望的。
希望活得比去年好。
期望梦想不会落空。
我答应自己，
勇敢面对一切。
迷失的人
August 9th, 2007 by syin88今天是8月9日，As 成绩终于出了， 我不想面对的日子最后还是来临了。上bio 节时，只见讲堂里的人寥寥可数，原来大家都去office 拿成绩了。坦白说，我心里真的很忐忑，根本没勇气去拿。看着所有的朋友个个拿了成绩回来， 最后只剩下我和shir 。 结果，shir 问我要不要一起去拿， 好不容易，我下定决心要坦然面对。
拿到成绩的那一霎那， 不知道该喜还是该忧，果然如我预想的，但却不是我理想的。看着A4 纸上的成绩, bio-c(c); chem-b(b); phys-c(c); math-a(a); ， 我想了很多 — 我在想我应该 retake 化学吗？还是要 drop 生物或物理？还是全部都不要 retake 或drop，专注在A2呢？
现在我所要考虑的因素太多太多了，包括时间、压力、将来以及最重要的是我自己的能力；我不知道我还能应付吗, 我觉得自己已经到了极限。我深怕我的任何一个决定都是错误的。去年我已经做错了决定（在选择pre-u course 的时候），我真的怕了。后悔是我最讨厌的感觉，但我却无法令它远离我。
或许有人会觉得我的成绩不是很烂，可能你们还会觉得已经很不错了。但就是因为它不上不下，才令我下不了决心。我不知道我应该坚持之前想要读的pharmacy / chemical engineering ， 或者应该考虑其他的 courses 呢?_?
在此，我希望大家给我一点方向、指引我。。。。谢谢。。。
珍惜
August 1st, 2007 by syin88今天我看回自己的部落格， 我才发现已经很久没post东西上去了，难道我真的这么忙吗？！ （忙，只是个借口而已，其实是懒惰罢了，哈哈=P）回头想想，四月的mid course, 五月和六月初的AS考试，还真的忙得我喘不过气来。
考完试后，曾渡过了一短低潮期。那个时候，觉得自己很差劲，几乎把全部的paper 都考烂了。接着，又来了个厄消息– 我的公公竟然中风进院了！而我获知这消息的那一瞬间，当场愣住了。只因为我们才为公公刚庆祝父亲节，前后才一个星期多而已。在医院探望公公的时候，看到那一条条的细管插在他身上，我真的崩溃了，眼泪不自觉地流，尽管在这之前我一直叫自己要乐观面对。
同时，我的家里勾起了一连串的争执。这接二连三的事件令我觉得十分低落，情绪像天气般，阴晴不定，时而可以谈笑风生，转身就沉默寡言。身边的朋友可能都没察觉到吧，因为我掩饰的太好了（这应可喜，还是可悲呢=_=）。
朋友，对不起！！！我把这一切都自己承担，因为不想你们为我担心， 因为太在乎你们了，不想你们的心情受我影响。
人总是要经历某些挫折，才学会长大。在这期间，我领悟到了‘珍惜’。人生短暂，珍惜现在所拥有才是最重要的。以前常听别人说这句话，但要亲身体验及实践又谈何容易。如今， 我还在学习着，珍惜我的家人、我的朋友、我身边的每一个人。
April 26th, 2007 by syin88
终于，开始了我的第一个中文部落格。
忘了有多久没把自己的心情用文字写出来了， 应该是过了中二后吧！当时得知自己的日记被别人偷看后，感觉还蛮难受的， 有种被朋友背叛的失落。虽然事隔多年，而我也原谅了她，但内心却不自觉地长了一根刺， 对人也少了一份自信心、多了一份防备心。听起来好像很讽刺，这却是铁般的事实。这件事我从未与任何人提起，只是默默地把它藏在心里。 如今，心想是时候把它放下了，把内心的刺拔掉， 让自己获得释放。
唉，希望我能说到做到。。。。
1st time donate blood
July 13th, 2006 by syin8813, july 2006( thursday)
BD campaign is helding on tarc hall from 10-14 july again!!
i was planning 2 go college hall during break time on 12 wit my frenz–hui san.. both of us r so exciting coz it’s de 1st time.. when v reach outside de hall, there r some FAU’s helpers 2 give us instruction..
1st entered de hall is ve 2 get ur weight… my god, i m underweigth la, ToT, ‘terpaksa’ go out from de hall n cant donate ade… luckily there’s a nice FAU senior let me pass de weigthin stage… haha, so glad la, can continue de followin checkin stage..
after filled in de form they provide, i was askin move 2 de blood checkin stage.. easily, i pass de stage… next is go 2 check de blood pressure… aiks, de doctor askin so much ques… wait! she askin me whether eat alr anot, i was so stupid n said haven la… she looked at me suprisingly, n ask me go outside take some food 1st… aiks, i need 2 move out from de hall again…
de helper outside is very nice n bring drink 4 me… i was so rush 2 finish de drink n small cake… juz few min, then i go in 2 hall again… oh no, de same doctor is goin 2 check 4 me again!! lol, de blood pressure shown is low la… i was told dat cant donate dat time…. she advices me later or 2mlr only come back 2 donate, but b4 dat ve 2 make sure eat 1st!!
i was leave de hall wit disappointed… i decided later finish class ll go there again!!
after one an a hours of bio practical, there’s pure math tutorial class… haha, luckily our math lecturer was absent, thus de tuto had been cancelled.. i drunk a ribena b4 i returned 2 de hall, it’s bcoz i scared my blood pressure was remain low as juz now…
when i entered de hall again, i straight away went 2 blood pressure checkin stage wit de report i received juz now.. luckily tis time not de same doctor checkin 4 me…
easily i had pass through all de checkin stage, de hospital staff was given me a pack of thing to fill blood n a card dat certify of donate blood… when i laid on the bed prepared, feelin so excited…after few min, there’s a FAU’s member n a nurse came 2 my bed.. de FAU’s so nice n told me b relax… i was talkin 2 her until din aware dat de ‘jarum’ had stuck into my hand… haha, i only noticed it when felt little pain on my right hand…
dunno whether i had exercise my finger or any other reason, the nurse said my blood was moving very fast into de pack… within 5 min, de pack is full-filt wit my blood… b4 de nurse get away my blood, she let me touched on it…. by holding my warm n fresh blood, i can imagine dat someday, some1 ll using it when needed… i was never regret about it although i felt a bit weak after de donation…
my blood donation experience was ended when i left de hall.. b4 tis i wrote a big signature on de board dat FAU prepared… tis great n meaningful experience ll keep in my mind during de whole life… i shared my experience here is hope 2 encourage all my frenz, n don’t b scared about donate blood… coz after u try it, u ll really felt wonderful^.^
College’s life
May 31st, 2006 by syin888 of may is my 1st day to tarc, there r so many ppl i had meet… luckily, i was accompany by 2 frenz– ph n ht^^…after having a such boring briefing in DKA, finally v can went home at 3pm…
9 of may, early in de morning v decided 2 ponteng de activity organised by our senior… haha, 2nd day in tarc v knew how 2 ponteng ade… after dat, v go 2 c de class list dat juz put on notice board…OH MY GOD!.. 3 of us also different class, how come lidat, ToT……me was in sn7a, ph in sn7b while ht in sn7e….v so sad after knew tis especially ht, cauz me n ph stil can ve same lecture class but her timetable is totally different from us… anywhere, in de afternoon v back college’s library 2 make our student id card… there r so many ppl line up 2 make it, n ve go 4 de library briefing too… because of too much ppl, v decided 2 submit de application form only n not goin 4 i’s briefing…
10 0f may, last 2 day was de orientation act n it’s gone, suffering day ll started(think in my mind)…. early in de morning, me, ph n ht were woke up.. after eating a big breakfast at mamak stall, v start our journey 2 skol… 1st step walk in de lecture hall, all was de strange face… aiks, luckily ph is having same lecture class wit me^^… 1st period is safely passing, but 2nd period– bio teacher(ms chong) wanna us 2 sit in a group wit classmate… oh no, facing every new faces, i bcome very quiet.. futhermore, ms chong 1 us 2 choose out ajk class by ourselves… aiks, every1 sitting around was speakin eng, so difficult 2 communicate wit them la… haha, luckily i found a new frenz–hui san who’s prefer speak chinese too^^… i m not alone ade, then v r sit 2gather during tutorial class… oh ya, 4got 2 inform dat our class rep is eu-jin–a very talkative guy i think, n assistant class rep is farah– a malay gal look liked chinese..
11 of may, 2day(thurs) is de most long period of study day–my class in end on 4pm man…1st time met de chem prac teacher, dunno how 2 describe him, juz think dat he’s a very ”jie jian” person……..think of 2molo is hols, de time was passing so fast, hahah….
to be continue..
